friendships - older the better?

heavy topic today... its gd fri but didnt start out too gd for me. smthg got me tinking abt e friendships i have..

somehow i feel my closest friends often are the ones who put me down with their insensitive remarks... or were those meant as mean jokes? i really dun noe. i noe most of them has commented tat im quite xiao qi. i tink so but sometimes the situation just went beyond my limits. prob reali too sensitive on my side but still feel hurt by some of their occassional curt remarks :S

ok jio-ed chao and ru for lunch today. it was impromptu cuz my original plans to go hot yoga with silvia today was cancelled only last nite (after listening to all the unpleasant experiences the other gals had). so i was feeling bored tis morning so asked em out for lunch. anyway i offered to pick both of them up to vivo. in the end, the 1st remark i got from ru when they got into the car? "oh we were wondering whose the 'cannot make it' driver".. yes they meant me and it wasnt said in a joking manner.. it felt quite hurtful. at that moment, i tink i wld be happier lazing around at home.. didnt even felt like driving anymore. felt so off.. i tink i wont bother to drive the next time we r out.

well the insensitivity didnt end there. on the way to vivo, ah ru was complaining she was feeling sleepy and asked why we suddenly decided to meet. i said cuz i was feeling bored. and her reply? "oh hui, you must be feeling so kong xu"... my god... y do i have friends who talk like tat? now i duno whens the next time i'll ask the gals out.. i juz feel so disappointed that my friends talk like tat... sometimes jing makes some remarks tat is hurtful too. careless they maybe but it never feels gd at the receiver end. they are closest friends yet the least encouraging. Comments on my job changes, my lousy driving (its not fanastic but it gets me from pt A to pt B safe and sound so wat the heck?).. well the list goes on. why? whenever i offer some job advice or share interview experiences, the first thing wld be "ya hui very experienced cuz she changed 3 jobs already".. .. sometimes maybe im better off not talking at all.

strange tat these come from friendships i have maintained for 10 over yrs.. i tink im beginning to feel tired of having to listen to the some of the same remarks over and over again... juz too tiring.