Adversity

Tough times at work.

Today i felt so sian in e midst of the discussion that i almost feel like crying out to ease the pek chekness. it made me realise.. the negative tots are realli eating into me. and i noe i ought to step out of it. no matter how unbearable it is getting. cuz its juz like a snowball now.. and if i dont step off and get back on dry tracks.. it will juz keep growing and GROwing....

i want to be happy... take things easy and juz take work as just work. mebe work has taken centerstage in my life now which explains y its eating into me so much....

been working on the same thing again and again... at least for the last 6 months? plans keep changing... those leading the proj doesnt seem to be having a clear lead. which is worrying. time is working against us... all of us know. but things juz keeps gg in circles and we have made no progress for months. so much things that we've been asked to comment on but eventually what happens? 70% of it gets rejected and we are told we are running out of time. in the end, we practically had not much to comment on the product and the brochure turns out to be so amateurist...total disappointment and an embarassment to bring that out to meet ppl... gosh...

puzzles me how such a major project can turn into such a mess. with a develpmt alien creating extra layers for communication, play tai-ji ever so often and most of the time becoming a 'bulldozer' on others.. i wonder who made the decision to place someone like him to lead the whole project. what a risk!

Now theres an alien in my dpt which the co. spends a hefty amt relocating him here which is creating havoc n unhappiness in the team. i wonder if he realises that he has yet to convince us that he is worthy of his position.

strange thing in life. when a foreign company ventures into other countries, they still 'plant' their own ppl (who know nuts abt the local mkt) to lead the locals and knowing fairly well that locals can pull off a gd job. sigh... life leaves us with no choice and with nothing known as "fairness".

i juz pray for strength and positive feelings to grow as i move on in this difficult phase...

"If we had no winter, the spring would not be so pleasant; if we did not sometimes taste of adversity, prosperity would not be so welcome" Anne Dudley Bradstreet